You ..Me..and The Blue Rose

Roses, when it is blue
So rare, so beautiful
Yet thorns still hide from within
Like it's not easy to hold...


Oh, the feeling is mutual
So real, so intimate,
And everytime you touch,
as I close my eyes
I can only wish forever

Barely a week since we met
Yet it seems we've known
each other for so long
For a cup of coffee, and
a slice of cheesecake
A time when we felt for each other

Every moment of time spent with you
Happiness seem to be endless
We joke around, we laugh, we make memories
A treasure to keep in our hearts

Romancin' on a cozy night
When all you can see is the shadow..
of a candlelight burning
And if love can only speak for itself
I know, it's so beautiful, a feeling that we feel

T'was a lovely story we can write about
On a wintertime, in December
Like a rose that is blue, it's always wonderful to know,
That there is you and me.

TURNABOUT

never impossible
love is a thief
somewhere..somehow..
when i seem to be at a lost

not knowing..
never wanting...
but along the way,
he came into my life.

funny...crazy..
then i realize,
it's beautiful.
and it's love.

Written, December 07, 2010, Tuesday

i'll just be around...
i'll always be around...
and if i die...
i want to die in your arms... 

August 17, 2010, Tuesday

The Sunset

On a windy afternoon,
Sitting just along the seawall,
It’s an orange hours once again,
As I call my surroundings that way .

Yet, it’s so natural.
So warm and tender.
Such a beautiful scene
The way the sun sets.

You can see how it moves slowly
Til it touches the horizon.
Suddenly, from this full rounded thing
It drops to a half concave,
And you realize, it’s gone.
Darkness suddenly covers everything.

What a wonderful scene.
When life is like a sunset.
When you say hello, and goodbye…
And hello again…
Because it’s the way it is.

July 12, 2010, Monday

my heart says...

funny..i remember when i told the whole world...i am so much in love with love...and then, i ask....please dont bug on me..dont mess up with me, ...especially when i am in love.
now here i am, so lonely...so damn lonely. i feel so mess up. im still in love...and he loves me so much. no doubt about it. but now, i feel like i want to get away from this. why? because i feel like i dont deserve this at all. or maybe, i deserve it.. but people kinda dislike the idea. now i feel like....again...a part of me is dying...

May 31, 2010, Monday

:(

how i wish to die..yet it's not time for me....and when time comes..and i think otherwise...hay naku..i just really needed to be ready anytime... the very moment i wake up in a day...whatever is in store for me...whatever...however...sad...sad...sad....all i want is to be happy...and make others happy...simple...yet complicated....haaayyyyssss....

January 29, 2010, Friday

When Love Is Gone

behind those smile
a lonely eyes...
in my heart,
the pain still prick

its been a long long while,
years have passed,
suddenly in my mind, i remember,
the love that's so true.

but softly as i heard the song,
of promises to love forever...
reality speaks in my heart,
that he is gone forever.

yet, this love keeps coming back to me
my heart says i still feel the same
i want to keep this love in my heart
even if the shadow of pain remains... 

November 19, 2009, Thursday

I Love You, Mama

she comforts me
she pampers me
She cares for me
She loves me

she cries when i cry
and laugh when i laugh
she shares with me
things i've never experience in my life

she understand me
when i am being misunderstood
she believes in me
when nobody believe in me


she is there always,
at my darkest hours,
at my loneliest moment,
at those times when i feel so alone

she gives me everything
she does everything for me
she loves me so much
and there is no doubt about it

and if one day,
God will want her to go home,
I will ask the Lord,
"Ako na lang..."

June 10, 2009, Wednesday

To You, My Friend... :)

nice name....nice face...

sure thing, behind this name,

someone with a good heart...

with exciting lifestyle...

and full of enjoyment and fun.



someone i can share my feelings,

someone who can listen to my heart,

someone i can relate my life story with....

a friend i think am looking for...

Heart Captured

life was so dull in my past
so dark i couldn't see
it was my dyng moment
love, i thought is gone forever

it took long long years
it's never expected
but then came along
and it's so amazing

crazy, or a lot crazier
but suddenly you came
stange feeling i feel
then there is wanting

you brighten my world
you put rainbow in my heart
you bring me back to life
you are the one

your existence is so true
my heart captured by your smile
and everthing is never been the same again
thank you for loving me this way

June 7, 2009, Sunday

What's Next?

whatelse do i have to do with my life?"
this line struck my mind last night
and then, i remember one more
just another song that hit my heart...
"Do you know where you're going to?"

the lyrics call for an answer
somehow, in between the lines,
i suddenly ask myself
what am i doing?

truly so many things slip my hands
good things, nice dreams
plans that never materialize
goals that have not pushed through
So where do i go now?

where did i go wrong?
what have i done?
if i have to go over and over my life again,
i guess, it all falls down to two words
I fail....

Written, June 03, 2009, Wednesday

Let Me Hear The Song Again

"Looking Through the Eyes of Love"
This song from way back when..
This song I always love to hear
Song that make me quiver..if not shiver

But this song, it makes my heart melt
And makes me smile, too, cry at times
Reminisces my life story
Dream dreams that spells out love and happiness

I will always remember the song
This song that have lived with me
For the longest time of my life
That made memories I can treasure

every lyrics, every melody,
I will carry it in my mind,
in my heart and in my soul
...forever.

And I want to hear this song again,
on the day I will die.

Written, June 02, 2009, Tuesday

AT THE BEACH...

and if i feel like i am tired
and need to unwind,
i can only go to the beach
in a late afternoon to watch the sunset.
and then i empty my mind..

suddenly, i feel so relax
just hearing the sound of the waves
that splash out to the seaside...

and then suddenly,
the rays of the sun that touches the ocean ...
so beautiful that you can just see
the silence of the water from afar,...

with the small waves that dances...
with the whole surroundings
that turns into orange color.....
and the horizon....

this is my life...
so boring...
so lonely....
so dull...

but i'm ok...
i will be ok...

Written, May 27, 2009 , Wednesday

I'd Rather Be...

it wasn't easy being alone...
but many tmes, i thought,
i'd rather be...
if only to find myself...
if only to realize things...
and know the difference..

although i don't say
i don't need someone...
of course, i do need it...
a friend, whatever you call it...

just like i always dream about...
someone to listen to my heart...
to laugh with...to cry with...to just be with....

simple living is all i want...
but life has its ups and downs,
and you can't help, if not,
run away from the complications
that life brings me...

it's alright...i'm still alive...
survival is the word....
and it's what, i guess,
am suppose to do...
to survive every single day that comes...
no matter what...

Written, May 27, 2009, Wednesday

A TIME FOR US...REASON TO BELIEVE...

there' s always time for everything..
time for the sun to shine
for the moon to hide
for the rain to shower

It's just nice what time has given us..
from out of nowhere,
there is the road for us
lead us to a meeting place
and discover each other

such a beautiful moment of time
time to share each other's love
time to share each other's laughter
time to share each other's intimacy

indeed, there's always time for everything
and every little things that happen,
there is always a reason
and reason to believe

to believe how much we love each other
how much we care for each other
how much we always want to just be with each other
and believe how much we are meant for each other

i guess, it is what time is for us...
and reason to believe...

Written, March 09, 2009,  Monday

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL...EVEN MORE...

to share my dreams...
to be with someone...
whom i can just walk along the beach,
or sit down along the shore
and just watch the sunset...

have a cup of coffee together,
in a winter breeze...
or maybe, lie down on a sandy island
see the stars twinkle in the night...
share each other's laughter,
listen to each other's whispering hearts...

that is how i see life to be beautiful....
with all the dash of love and romance...
and just let that wonderful feelings flow
in each other's warm hearts,
like it's just the two of us
in this world God has created....

Written, January  10, 2009, Saturday

Choice is Yours..So They Say...

When we wake up in the morning,
We have two simple choice...
Go back to sleep and dream again
Or wake up and chase your dream...

Written, July 11, 2008, Friday

When Things Go Wrong...

Spiderman says, "we always have a choice..."

but...

It was never my choice to be lonely...
It was never my choice to sacrifice a little...
It was never my choice to do something I never wanted to...
to work on something and with someone I hated working with...

Indeed, it was never a choice to be hurt this way...

It's just that I didn't have a choice... :(

After all, from the very day I was born, I didn't really have a choice.

Written, July 29, 2008, Tuesday

Feels So Lonely

When in the midst of silence,
suddenly there goes..
questions that pop up to your mind
from the very whys to the very hows
the feeling of confusion

you know you got a lot friends
your loves ones who stood by your side
anytime you need them
a text away, or just make a call
you know you got them there
to listen to you
to help you

Yet you can't burst out the feeling
That bothers you endlessly
You can't even say a word or two

It's not that I don't need them.
Maybe, I just need to be alone
To find myself
To find my life

Time is running out
Or is it running fast?
Or maybe,I need more time

there is this feeling of emptiness
Frustrations I just can't deny
I feel like I am getting tired...

Tired of so many things
Of hopelessly waiting
Of hoping to finish the unfinish

When I just keep on writing and writing
Still i can't find answers to questions
No sense at all

Written, September  24, 2008, Wednesday

Life Is What We Make It

When you keep on wishing for the brightest star
when you keep on dreaming to become the greatest
when you want to goal for one

But when it seems like the world is tumbling dpwn on you
And making it real is hard to believe
Yet this is life
And this is reality

Sometime it feels better
To just expect for the worse
Because the best is just along the way
It's just there

Life is like a game...
You win or you lose
It's what you make it
but it's how you play the game

You can play it fair
Or you can even cheat
You get the thrill of it
While enjoying the winning bets

Or crazy as it is
Accept that you lose something
And just go home with only a penny on your pocket

so what's the big fuzz about what is goin' around?
To live your life like it were your last?
After all, we only have one life to live
It's really all up to you...

Written, September  23, 2008, Tuesday

One Love Song,..One Love Story

So much to hear about love songs
so much to read about love stories
something that makes you smile
and makes you cry too...

love song that bring me back in time.
love story that's forever in my heart
that moment when i suddenly realize
it was indeed the love i've always wanted

it's was so amazing
the very feeling of being in love.
that amazing moment of time
like a bed of roses

yes, i was so deeply in love
like it was an endless love
so beautiful, so lovely
like no other love

and if i go back in time,
i want to pass by the same road
same love song,
same love story

October 04, 2008

until you are there...
until you have felt it,
then and only then you will know what loneliness is....

if loneliness is all in the mind level,
what else would there be a reason for having a heart to love...
don't you think love could also be in the mind level?

where there is happiness...
in some ways there is loneliness..
life is what it is...
and life is what we make it...


maybe we have a choice,
in some ways, we don't...
hard to believe, hard to understand...

but its reality.. ..

Written, October 15, 2008 , Wednesday

UNEXPECTEDLY

One day I met you
Then we became friends
We chat everyday..every night
Till the wee hours
And we never get tired

We hang around over at the phone
We play games most of the time
We laugh, we cry, we comfort each other
We share happiness, and sadness
Till we get over every little things, and big things too

And then suddenly
This strange feeling,
Something wonderful
It's so amazing

Those caring moments
And thoughts of you
The many times you say
I love you

I want to believe
In my heart, it's the same feeling I feel
But it's so beautiful
Yes! I am in love with you too...

And I want to feel the same feeling
Till the last of my breathe
Until the next journey of my life

Written, December 10, 2008,
On a Wednesday afternoon

If Soulmates Are For Real...

Along a narrow road, there I was,
Into my car, I drive so desperately.
So furiously I was so alone,
And my heart is in pain...

Stepping on the gas,
Holding on to that steering wheel
My mind is so empty,
My soul is in searching ...

Then, I stopped for a while.
In that open space of an endless road
My head just dropped off, and burst out all my cries
For all I care... whoever cares...

Then came a man from out of nowhere
He held me back to the other seat
Suddenly, I felt the comfort of his warm embrace
Just as I heard him say, "Sit back and everything will be alright

Later did I realize, I gave him my car keys
He drove me to a place where he thinks, I can find peace
He was there with me, all the time
And all the time, he made me feel secured and safe

It was one beautiful thing that happened to me
Just when I realize I wasn't all alone,
In that very moment of one special occasion, On Valentine's day,
A bunch of lovely tulips he gave me Right then and there,
We both know.. We are soulmates.

February 15, 2007

The Day A Part of Me Died

A love story to tell a thousand times
To wake up in a lazy morning
Giving a sigh as you watch your beloved
Beside you on a soft comfortable mattress

And I know I am with the man of my dream
And so, I am in love with the guy I slept with
So much to wish there is never an ending
And then I realize how beautiful love is
When he said, love is you and me

The love story I call it
Everything I know and believe
It was the character I dream about
The feeling I've never felt before

And then suddenly, I know what to do
To close my eyes and empty my mind
In my heart and in my soul,
His name is all that I can remember

The warm embrace, the kiss of the night
To feel him in me, the moment of my life
"I love you" is all I can hear from him
The last I know, he is gone forever

T'was the day a part of me died...

April 15, 2004

When Am I Gonna Stop?

When am i gonna stop feeling this way
Thinking of you in a crazy night
Reminiscing those days you were mine
The happy moments of the love that we had
And the sadness when we cry together

Until when am i gonna stop loving you?
Last night, I cried so hard
It's been a long while
Just when i thought time heals all wounds
But why is this happening to me?

After all this time, Love is still there
And I know deep inside I still love you
Again, I ask myself
Until when am I gonna stop loving you

You don't deserve me
Maybe I don't deserve you too
We don't click to each other
I guess, we're not meant to be

The love affair that we had,
Then came to an end
And if it ended so badly,
In my heart, a memory

The love story to tell,
Now, it has come to an end
I have to stop loving you from now on
And the love to die a thousand times
To go a hundred miles

And if I ask again
When am I gonna stop loving you
Only time can tell, if I may say
Because in my heart right now
I still want to continue loving you

February 10,2007

What We Want To Have...

If you want to have what you've never had,
Then you must do what you've never done.
Coz if you only do what you've always been doing,
You will only have what you've always been having.

Some People...

Some people tend to live in fantasy
Happy as they are, like kings and queens.
In a castle full of fairies, and then, they are lost
Forgetting to come back to reality...

Some people tend to play their games
Tokens and chips, they shuffle their cards.
So engross in winning their hearts and diamonds
Suddenly, the realization at the losing end...

Some people are just too good to be true,
Aiming to gain friends, so they say.
The intellect in them, the humility to be who they are
And then, they break into laughter...

Some people tend to know very well.
To give credit to others, and discredit them too.
To brag about things in life
Suddenly, he is out of nowhere...

But some people only want to share their feelings
And to share their life's ups and downs,
To people who is worth becoming a friend,
To learn from them too is worth the time spent...

And so, hours spending to something or someone,
Whatever you gain or lose,
To just be yourself, to just be who you are,
It's all that matters anyway...

After all, life is what you make it. :)

March 31, 2007

LIKE A TULIPS IN A MORNING BREEZE

You came back to me
And I don't know what to say or do
I thought I will cry forever
But you wiped my tears away.

The long moment of silence
That loneliest of the night
The tic of the clock is so deafening
Suddenly, you said to me, "It's you that I love"

How I wish you're out of my life.
To believe you is next to impossible
After all that shattered time, those painful moment
My world was shaken suddenly

But I heard you say again,
"I chose you because I love you"
Days had passed, and you never stop from then on
I can't help but feel the sincerity in your heart.

To see your lonely eyes begging for another chance
Then my heart could no longer hide the feeling
I know deep inside me, I still love you
You offered me now, not a promise
But a commitment to love me forever

Now I am crying again
But you didn't wipe my tears anymore
Yes, because you chose to stay by my side
And we know, we are back as one.

In my heart, in my soul, I know,
We are soulmates, just as we've always been
And like the tulips in a morning breeze,
Let our love bring happiness to each other

For as long as time will allow us...

March 15, 2007

in a simple way that Roosje is...

So, this is it! I'm here.. and I am just so excited. Don't know much about this thing. But I thought this will help me pour my feelings out... be it happy, or sad, or just simply speaking my mind, my heart, and my soul.

The way a hopeless romantic move mountains,
And as the water that flows from the stream...
Life to me is nothing but full of beautiful things,
And love is where my soul brings me to...

This is my place...
Here I am....
Come on in!